Try Again Please!

So I keep making mistakes with my new found faith, my new found love, and my new found relationship. It is so hard to avoid going back into old routines and not doing things the way we used to. God is being so gracious at the moment with us, he is helping us on so many levels. On the times that me and my wife are arguing it is probably because one of us is saying something that the other doesn't understand, in times like this all we have to do is pray we just say to God, 'Help us, please, we are having problems understanding each other, we want the words to speak and the ears to listen' and he grants it. The really cool thing is that just by praying it flushes both full of calm and peace so even if what is said afterwards is the same or what is heard is the same it doesn't matter as much because when we are calm like that it is so easy to communicate. Of course the biggest problem we make is that sometimes we try to go it alone and it goes on a lot longer than it should have, if we had just prayed in the first place we would never come to this situation where we are both angry and upset with each other.

So in otherwords even though we aren't getting things right all the time we are much better than we used to be, we are so blessed with each others company that even when disagreements arise we are still both convinced the other one loves us. We have been so blessed by God that we do argue less, we feel better about ourselves, about each other, about life in general really. I have this focus I have never had before and my wife isn't always having a terrible time at work.

Well we are getting on well so I feel fantastic... Also the greatest part is this, for the first time in I don't know how long I am actually really happy, even the sadness and the arguements are part of my happiness so I can't honestly say they are negative. I love my wife so much.

Thanks for reading, God bless,
NL

To Battle!!

I am currently sitting next to my wife attempting to help her battle with her 'EMS' a self assesment style piece of work she is required to do for work. I personally have always hated self assesments, it is much easier in all honesty to analyse someone else that one's self.

Currently we have come up with some ideas as to what she is good at, the current problem is the fact that we can't phrase the stuff we have come up with in such a manner that proves that she is like that... She actually has to come up with ideas as to times when she has done a certain thing, even though trying to remember stuff like that is practically impossible, sometimes people don't think about things, they just DO them... With God's help though we will be able to finish this insane task and be free from the bondage that is so obviously tied up with this task.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Simple Good Food

Ok so I thought I would upload another recipe for you all to enjoy. It is basically a fish pie or a seafood pie or whatever you want to call it.

Ingredients:
3 Salmon Fillets
2.5 Other Fish Fillets (Cod, Haddock or White Fish are good)
250g Cooked, Skinned Prawns
500g Potatoes
Some Milk
Some Butter
1 Egg
Some Lemon Pepper (or other flavoring depending on taste)

Peel the potatoes and boil them for about 20 minutes till they are soft. While you are waiting skin the salmon if you have to and cook the salmon and other fish in a frying pan. When the potatoes are soft mash them and add the butter, milk and finally the egg. Place all the cooked fish and the prawns in an oven dish (you may or may not wish to put it in layers depending on taste, personally I prefer to mix it all together) and spinkle the spice over the fish and cover over with the mashed potato. Place the pie in a preheated oven on the middle shelf and allowed the dish to cook through, when the mashed potato has started to brown off it is ready to serve.

Enjoy, and thanks for ready, God Bless,
NL

The Power Of Prayer

So then, me and my wife started off the day in a bad mood... We have been trying to sort out a sleeping regime to allow us to get the maximum possible amount of REM sleep to enable us to feel refreshed and relaxed when woken. However last night went a bit messed up and we ended up sleeping really badly so when we woke up I was upset with her because she messed up the sleeping pattern and she was upset with me because she didn't sleep good, so we started the day with an arguement. We discussed a lot of things during this arguement but she had to go to work about half an hour after it started, and as she had pointed out we didn't pray together much for the last couple of days I said she couldn't go to work till we had prayed. So we did, and when she had to go to work 5 minutes later we were ok again. Prayer is a really powerful thing, it can help in the hardest of times, and in the easiest... just remember when things do seem to be getting easier that is the real time to pray because that is when you are probably going to find it hard a few days later, at least there is pretty much a balance right?
So anyway we resolved things in prayer and she went to work and we are both happy again.

Thanks for reading,
NL

To Read Or Not To Read?

So as you know, I am currently awaiting the opportunity to get a job and go on a course for Psychology. At the moment however it seems that there are jobs absolutely nowhere in my town, I mean literally none, everywhere already has all the people they need and it is mildly irritating.

Right now I am extremely bored, filling my days seems like such a chore, I am enjoying reading my books on Psychology, however there is only a certain amount of time I can do that before my consentration starts to slip. Whenever I try to do anything entertaining is seems somewhat laborious and I wish to be honest I just had some sort of work to distract me from the long days while my wife is at work. I have been making some candles for our place though, which I must admit does bring me some joy, however while I wait for them to solidify I have very little else to do, and when I do find something it takes me about 5 minutes to get bored of it. When it feels like everything makes me bored I just don't look forward to doing anything... I don't know maybe this is God's way of testing me to see if I am able to rely on him, and find something interesting to do.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

And So It Begins...

Again I am back to looking for a job so that I can provide enough cash to be able to undertake my course. I am already reading books about the subject I am going to be studying, however it just isn't the same as the course material.

I had a bit of a slip up today, whereby I bought £10 worth of scratch cards and won back only £1, I was sort of hoping that I'd be able to win enough to start my course but of course it is gambling in the end and I obviously lost. Shame really but still.

I suppose even though I don't win I can see God has got my back. Me and my wife do have everything we NEED provided for but I just want to be able to expand my horizons and I am sure this is where I am being called, so I don't know maybe something will turn up soon.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

The Hells Of Modern Life

Hello again, it has been a while since last I posted, I know this however over the last few months a lot has happened.

To be honest with you I have been being influenced a lot by the enemy and I almost lost my wife, my home, everything I had because of it. I met another girl and because of this things started to go wrong, I was listening to the wrong voices and trusting in the wrong person. It ended when God spoke to me directly and told me exactly what I was doing wrong, exactly where I was losing my way and how things could possibly be fixed. As I have now started to try and fix things everything is looking like it is going to turn out fine, stuff from my past is being resolved and both me and my wife are having a fairly substancial amount of healing. God has been with me a lot resently and I am glad for it, because if he hadn't been I would never have got to this place. I cannot do anything on my own. So to continue as I said before things from my past are being resolved, one such thing is that I am making progress as to what I am supposed to be doing with my life, it seems I have always wanted to study psychology so as that is where I feel I should be going that is what I am going to start studying... as soon as I find a job.

God bless you all,
NL