After Months Of Rejection

After months of rejecting my blog in favour of my various other conquests (youtube) I have decided to bring a renewal of commitment to try and get at least one post on my blog per week (some weeks will probably be more). I started this blog because I wanted to organise my thoughts, to be able to think things through and come up with decent answers. In some ways this has been a success and THIS is why I have decided it is important to continue. Obviously yesterdays post was more like a way of analysing the arguement I was having with my wife at the time and by the end of it I had actually come to the conclusion I had been doing stuff wrong that was making the situation worse and just upsetting my wife more. In the end neither of us are perfect and we still need to work on things, however I am happy to say that after I had finished blogging yesterday we managed to resolve the arguement fairly easily when I just took the time to LISTEN to what she was trying to say and stopped giving her damn pointless advice. All is good and God did answer my prayer in the end so I am happy for that.

May God bless you and keep you,
NL

If I Want To Discuss

Me and my wife are having one of our disagreements conserning the amount of friends I have who are female. She doesn't like it and is constantly jealous of them. She winds me up to the point that I am shouting at her and can't control my irritation at the fact that she is unwilling to talk to me properly and expects me to talk from a point where I literally am unable to understand what she is saying. She says to me 'Why won't you understand me?' lying down, turned away from me with her back to me. She won't communicate in way that I can understand so what am I supposed to do? As the discussion turns towards a more furious arguement I say 'I can't win with you, I can't even draw', she replies with 'why does this have to be a game? why does this have to be a fight?' it is a fight because she has made it so. She is jealous and wants to talk to me and yet refuses to talk to me in a way I can understand, when I try to give ideas as to how to solve the problem she pretty much spits them back in my face. Maybe that's a problem there, I keep giving fixes to the problem, not really listening to how she feels, but I don't really know what else to do? How can I empathise? I don't really get jealous, I don't mind if she has guy friends. Though I have asked God I think I need to try harder because it doesn't seem to be coming to me.

I guess in the end after this rant really I have come to the point where I can understand that neither of us is doing it right, really I do get to defensive in my discussion. I need to work at listening to her better and try to relate on a higher level rather than just giving whatever solution pops into my head. I just wish she could face me when she is talking to me, give me some body language to work with.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you all,
NL

And She Is Gone

So my wife just got the news that her direct boss (team leader), who has been there less time than my wife (about 6 months), has today handed in her notice to quit. The woman in question was never really very apt at her particular job, she couldn't do it in otherwords, so perhaps it is for the best that she is going. I am actually very glad that the woman in question is leaving due to the fact that she had a very unhelpful and attacking approach to everyone she worked with apart from her boss, she was mean, lazy and all round a waste of space. Perhaps my wife will try to pursue a promotion, however I doubt it as I don't think my wife really wants to follow the stream of management. We shall see how this all turns out, right now I am happy that such a negative person is moving from her work, however I am hoping that she might end up in a situation where she will come to faith and maybe starting treating people a bit more equally. We shall always remember her in our prayers.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you,
NL

Migraine Worries

At the moment I sit infront of my computer worried terribly about my wife. She keeps getting headaches and I wonder often whether it is something she is eating or something that she is doing that is the problem. At this moment in time she is laying in the other room trying to get some sleep because the pain behind her eyes is unbearable. I don't know what to do about it. I have no ideas what to suggest. She has tried taking 2 types of painkiller but neither has worked and her head is still throbbing. Apart from sleeping and getting a lot of liquids what can be done about this situation? I mean in all likelyhood it is the weather causing the problem what with the extra heat and brightness of light. I wish terribly that I could take the pain for her and that she would be refreshed and happy, even if it meant I had to go through the same torment she is currently going through I would be willing to do that. I hate it when she can't smile, I hate when she isn't ok. It is harder for me to cope with my problems when she can't raise her head just to be able to smirk a little. I am so worried about her and I don't want her to feel like this anymore. Is there really nothing I can do for her?

On a side note if you were to go over to my youtube channel tomorrow you would be noticing some serious changes to it. Things are moving in a different direction and I am happy for the change. I am glad that I might be able to make something out of this. www.youtube.com/niveusleonusx

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you all,
NL

Cars, Cars Everywhere, But Not A Thing To Drive

So my wife and I have been searching for a car recently. We can't seem to agree on the perfect one and as such keep hitting loggerheads. There are so many cars out there that just seem wrong I so badly hope that soon we will find the correct one. Also my brother got married in the weekend.

Well anyway this was just a quick update. As such, please remember to go check out my youtube channel www.youtube.com/niveusleonusx I try to get a video up most days but the last few weeks I have been unable as I have been busy with wedding preparations.

Thanks for reading,
NL

To Much Day Not Enough Rest

I know I only really post on here once in a blue moon nowerdays, but I thought I would just update how things are going. For the last few days me and my wife have been sleeping way to much, we seem to be constantly tired and lethargic. I think it is probably due the fact that last weekend we went to my brother's and future sister-in-law's stag night and hen do respectively and all the travelling just emptied us out.
Anyway my vlog seems to be going well, I do actually have some people watching regularly so I am pretty happy with that. I must admit that it makes me good to know that people are interested in the regular workings of my life even when I am talking about something as serious and boring as politics. Though most of the time my videos are just basically me talking about me, my life and my relationship with my wife. I guess really I have just subbed this for that but either way they are both ways of expressing myself that are fun but also very different from each other.

Me and my wife baked these delicious blueberry buns this week and we are currently in the middle of eating 2 of them. I would serious suggest you all look into the recipe. They are by Jamie Oliver and called 'Jamie's sexy swedish buns'.

Thanks for reading. God Bless,
NL

Life Is Simple, Blogging Is Hard

To ALLLL my fans... roflmao. I realised recently it's getting harder and harder to think of stuff to write on here because most of the time I am just saying anything I want to see on Youtube, so I kind of feel like I am cheating on my blog with my vlog. I suppose that I could technically post everything I say on there onto here but there doesn't really seem to be much point. Really my vlog seems to be fullfilling all of my blogging needs at the moment. Well anyway I haven't really been up to much recently apart from vlogging and going on this website called 'www.nerdfighters.ning.com' which is kind of made of awesome. What's a nerdfighter? I hear all of my massive amounts of fans ask, a Nerdfighter is a Nerd who is dedicated to fighting world suck and making it a better place through doing a lot of stuff such as raising money for charities, extending awareness of environmental damage and basically just doing good things. Anyway if you think you are a Nerdfighter go check it out. It would be interesting to meet someone who is actually reading my blog...

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
niveusleonusx