To Guide Or Not To Guide

Hey everyone. Today all I wanted to talk about really was the fact that I am coming quite quickly to the completion of The Relationship Guide as I am fast running out of ideas. I must admit I am going to miss doing it but still I am going to be doing some other Youtube related stuff so I suppose it will be ok. What I am planning to do next is a Vlog, and a few bits of funny stuff, unfortunately I don't think I am as funny on camera as I am in real life. Still it is a good project.

Anyway sorry that this is so short. Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Home Time

Today has been great, because I have been able to spend it with my wife. We have been shopping which was nice just to walk around a bit and dream about the things that we will buy when we get enough money. We technically went shopping for 2 things and ended up forgetting about one of them. I suppose we can go back tomorrow and get it. When we got home we played some Halo on Legendary and spent a lot of time as a couple pwning on the elites.

I really love my wife, she is a wonderful person, who though sometimes makes me feel so irritated, she is pretty much perfect for me. It is just a shame it took me so long to realise it. It is a shame it took so much work to come to terms with it. I love my wife, she really is fantastic.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Realisation!

Hey Everyone, I just realised something, nobody really reads my blog. I don't really care but I thought I would just post it. I am happy just typing to myself I guess, really I suppose this whole thing is just sort of like a diary for me. I like blogging even if noone reads it, I like just processing my mind through this particular media. However if there are any people who read this please don't feel put off, I will continue to blog no matter what, in fact if you are reading this please feel free to leave me a comment.

So anyway back to recent happenings. I have still got no job, I am taking things pretty easy as I don't want to stress myself out and I am feeling much more settled about being home all the time, it seems that God really changed me over the last few months, it feels good to know that I am now so much more patient than I used to be, so much more at peace with everything, and so much happier with my wife and my life. God has blessed me so much with all that he has done to me recently, so much so that when me and my wife have an arguement it becomes resolved very fast. I must admit though I am definitely not perfect and I do still keep getting things wrong however when I do make mistakes it isn't a tragedy as it now feels as though it is just another thing I can learn from. Each challenge brings new knowledge, everything has a meaning and something that can be taken from it. Another thing is that the communication lines between me and God are very much open pretty much constantly and when I do make a mistake I apologise and I don't feel bad about it afterward, because he has got my back, he cleanses me of all my wrong doing, he makes me feel ok again. I feel that he has blessed me and my wifes lives so much and he seems to have big plans for the pair of us. I love Him so much, I love my wife so much too, they are the 2 most important individuals in my life.

Thanks for reading and God bless,
NL

Killing Time

So as I am technically a house husband I actually have quite a lot of time on my hands, I pretty much split my time up like this: Looking for jobs, Blogging, Youtubing, Playing Sims 2 (or some other game), Tidying and Organising the apartment and studying psychology. So as you can see I do actually have quite a lot to do, unfortunately there are occasions when I have done all these things and I am still bored. In cases like that it is so tempting to hit ones head against a wall, in times like that everything I do just makes me more bored, even the stuff that is supposed to be quite entertaining feels like a chore. But at the end of the day when my wife gets home everything is OK again. I suppose I wouldn't actually get through the day without God's support, he keeps me up when I am feeling down and breaks the boredum surrounding me. For any of you who are interested I recently started posting on Youtube, I am in the process of creating a series discussing strengthening relationships, when this is finished I will probably move onto something not quite as challenging as a vlog or something, but for now I am happy with what I am doing. If you wish to check it out please feel free to search 'niveusleonusx' to find the videos.

Thanks for reading and God bless,
NL

Sim King

I have been playing a lot of Sims 2 with my wife resently. I have always found Sims 2 to be a really fun game for 2 main reasons. Firstly because of course that you have the opportunity to build houses, which I love because I like allowing my ideas flow freely, secondly you can play a family and control what they do. There is I should mention a button in the settings that allows players to turn off the 'Freewill'. Now when playing I can't help but appreciate God's grace because as a player the idea of the game is to keep your sims happy, in The Sims 2 they have no choice whether they listen to you or not, if they are using their freewill either you can cancel what they are doing or what you tell them to do is prioritised. Now in real life God has the power to make us happy and content, he has the power to fix all our problems, he even has the power to take away freewill if he wants. However, and this is a major point, he doesn't because he wants us the opportunity to make mistakes and learn from them, he allows us the chance to get things wrong, and he even gives us the option as to whether we listen to him or not. In the end in God's grace we are allowed to make our own decisions and even make our own choices, now whether that is by some sort of series of chemical reactions or whatever doesn't really matter because he has given us more power over our lives than that of ANY other creature in the entire universe. We have choice over all the things we do, all the land we fertilise or destroy, about whether or not we pump huge amounts of chemicals into the atmosphere, how we treat animals. We have the choices to damn the world or change it. After all according to a certain mobile phone company 'The Future is in our hands', in other words WE as a people have the ability to change the future for the good or for the bad.

So now you have read this, I hope you have noted that as it is our choice so we are allowed to make mistakes. He has given us that ability to make mistakes. However we are also capable of making the right decisions.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Mmmm Cake

So me and my wife are going to this meeting tonight about climate change that is being run by our church. When there was the option to sign up I chose 'setting up' and 'bring a pudding' the first I chose as my wife chose it and we only have one car so it made sense, the second I did because secretly I love to bake. Last Thursday I got bored in the middle of the day and put together a very basic chocolate cake, my wife loved it. I mean which wife wouldn't love coming home to a freshly baked chocolate cake?

So anyway today for the meeting I will be baking a basic sponge cake (victoria sponge) with jam in the middle, covered with hand whipped cream and strawberrys. I just hope that there is noone at this meeting that is lactose intolerant... but I suppose there will be other desserts because 2 other people from our 'branch group' signed up to do them and there is all the other branch groups to take into consideration.

Well I suppose with God's help I will produce a masterpiece of a cake. If not, I don't really mind I mean it is cake after all, even if it isn't perfect.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

I See You!

So I just thought I would write here that I have started a video guide on Youtube. If any of you readers are having problems in a relationship please feel free to look it up.

If you do wish to just search for my name : niveusleonusx
Or try searching for : The Relationship Guide

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Try Again Please!

So I keep making mistakes with my new found faith, my new found love, and my new found relationship. It is so hard to avoid going back into old routines and not doing things the way we used to. God is being so gracious at the moment with us, he is helping us on so many levels. On the times that me and my wife are arguing it is probably because one of us is saying something that the other doesn't understand, in times like this all we have to do is pray we just say to God, 'Help us, please, we are having problems understanding each other, we want the words to speak and the ears to listen' and he grants it. The really cool thing is that just by praying it flushes both full of calm and peace so even if what is said afterwards is the same or what is heard is the same it doesn't matter as much because when we are calm like that it is so easy to communicate. Of course the biggest problem we make is that sometimes we try to go it alone and it goes on a lot longer than it should have, if we had just prayed in the first place we would never come to this situation where we are both angry and upset with each other.

So in otherwords even though we aren't getting things right all the time we are much better than we used to be, we are so blessed with each others company that even when disagreements arise we are still both convinced the other one loves us. We have been so blessed by God that we do argue less, we feel better about ourselves, about each other, about life in general really. I have this focus I have never had before and my wife isn't always having a terrible time at work.

Well we are getting on well so I feel fantastic... Also the greatest part is this, for the first time in I don't know how long I am actually really happy, even the sadness and the arguements are part of my happiness so I can't honestly say they are negative. I love my wife so much.

Thanks for reading, God bless,
NL

To Battle!!

I am currently sitting next to my wife attempting to help her battle with her 'EMS' a self assesment style piece of work she is required to do for work. I personally have always hated self assesments, it is much easier in all honesty to analyse someone else that one's self.

Currently we have come up with some ideas as to what she is good at, the current problem is the fact that we can't phrase the stuff we have come up with in such a manner that proves that she is like that... She actually has to come up with ideas as to times when she has done a certain thing, even though trying to remember stuff like that is practically impossible, sometimes people don't think about things, they just DO them... With God's help though we will be able to finish this insane task and be free from the bondage that is so obviously tied up with this task.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Simple Good Food

Ok so I thought I would upload another recipe for you all to enjoy. It is basically a fish pie or a seafood pie or whatever you want to call it.

Ingredients:
3 Salmon Fillets
2.5 Other Fish Fillets (Cod, Haddock or White Fish are good)
250g Cooked, Skinned Prawns
500g Potatoes
Some Milk
Some Butter
1 Egg
Some Lemon Pepper (or other flavoring depending on taste)

Peel the potatoes and boil them for about 20 minutes till they are soft. While you are waiting skin the salmon if you have to and cook the salmon and other fish in a frying pan. When the potatoes are soft mash them and add the butter, milk and finally the egg. Place all the cooked fish and the prawns in an oven dish (you may or may not wish to put it in layers depending on taste, personally I prefer to mix it all together) and spinkle the spice over the fish and cover over with the mashed potato. Place the pie in a preheated oven on the middle shelf and allowed the dish to cook through, when the mashed potato has started to brown off it is ready to serve.

Enjoy, and thanks for ready, God Bless,
NL

The Power Of Prayer

So then, me and my wife started off the day in a bad mood... We have been trying to sort out a sleeping regime to allow us to get the maximum possible amount of REM sleep to enable us to feel refreshed and relaxed when woken. However last night went a bit messed up and we ended up sleeping really badly so when we woke up I was upset with her because she messed up the sleeping pattern and she was upset with me because she didn't sleep good, so we started the day with an arguement. We discussed a lot of things during this arguement but she had to go to work about half an hour after it started, and as she had pointed out we didn't pray together much for the last couple of days I said she couldn't go to work till we had prayed. So we did, and when she had to go to work 5 minutes later we were ok again. Prayer is a really powerful thing, it can help in the hardest of times, and in the easiest... just remember when things do seem to be getting easier that is the real time to pray because that is when you are probably going to find it hard a few days later, at least there is pretty much a balance right?
So anyway we resolved things in prayer and she went to work and we are both happy again.

Thanks for reading,
NL

To Read Or Not To Read?

So as you know, I am currently awaiting the opportunity to get a job and go on a course for Psychology. At the moment however it seems that there are jobs absolutely nowhere in my town, I mean literally none, everywhere already has all the people they need and it is mildly irritating.

Right now I am extremely bored, filling my days seems like such a chore, I am enjoying reading my books on Psychology, however there is only a certain amount of time I can do that before my consentration starts to slip. Whenever I try to do anything entertaining is seems somewhat laborious and I wish to be honest I just had some sort of work to distract me from the long days while my wife is at work. I have been making some candles for our place though, which I must admit does bring me some joy, however while I wait for them to solidify I have very little else to do, and when I do find something it takes me about 5 minutes to get bored of it. When it feels like everything makes me bored I just don't look forward to doing anything... I don't know maybe this is God's way of testing me to see if I am able to rely on him, and find something interesting to do.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

And So It Begins...

Again I am back to looking for a job so that I can provide enough cash to be able to undertake my course. I am already reading books about the subject I am going to be studying, however it just isn't the same as the course material.

I had a bit of a slip up today, whereby I bought £10 worth of scratch cards and won back only £1, I was sort of hoping that I'd be able to win enough to start my course but of course it is gambling in the end and I obviously lost. Shame really but still.

I suppose even though I don't win I can see God has got my back. Me and my wife do have everything we NEED provided for but I just want to be able to expand my horizons and I am sure this is where I am being called, so I don't know maybe something will turn up soon.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

The Hells Of Modern Life

Hello again, it has been a while since last I posted, I know this however over the last few months a lot has happened.

To be honest with you I have been being influenced a lot by the enemy and I almost lost my wife, my home, everything I had because of it. I met another girl and because of this things started to go wrong, I was listening to the wrong voices and trusting in the wrong person. It ended when God spoke to me directly and told me exactly what I was doing wrong, exactly where I was losing my way and how things could possibly be fixed. As I have now started to try and fix things everything is looking like it is going to turn out fine, stuff from my past is being resolved and both me and my wife are having a fairly substancial amount of healing. God has been with me a lot resently and I am glad for it, because if he hadn't been I would never have got to this place. I cannot do anything on my own. So to continue as I said before things from my past are being resolved, one such thing is that I am making progress as to what I am supposed to be doing with my life, it seems I have always wanted to study psychology so as that is where I feel I should be going that is what I am going to start studying... as soon as I find a job.

God bless you all,
NL