Rambling...

So I don't really know what to write here. I might have some more work tomorrow doing the same thing as I did last week which will be quite fun. More beds to be moved. Me and my wife decided not to go to church today and instead did a little Bible study which worked out quite well because we knew what was being done in the church meeting. Apart from those 2 things there isn't really anything else I have to say. Went out driving today though, first time I've driven properly in like 6 months, bit terrifying but I guess at least I didn't crash into anything. So yeah that's it.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you,
NL

Oil Spill

Good morning Youtube, errr wait wrong website. So hey everyone I was impressed to note that after months of posting once every few weeks on my blog I have actually done one almost every day for the past week, minus yesterday. The reason for my lack of post yesterday was due to the fact that I had work, yep, work! I got a call from the temping agency I signed up to to go move some beds, it was HARD labour, but I enjoyed it so much compared to sitting around doing nothing that today when I took my time sheet in today and I was asked whether I would maybe do it again next week I said that I would. My muscles hurt at the moment, however hopefully by monday they should be ok, in which case I'll be all ready to move some more beds. If I am to work next week however my posts on Youtube will be at different times than normal due to the fact that I won't be able to post in the morning, this doesn't really affect my channel so much except for the fact I will have to say "Good evening Youtube" instead of what I wrote at the beginning of this blog post. I recently added my Moderator Module to my channel and though at first I thought it wasn't doing anything it seems that a couple of people have used it and I will be able to have a discussion idea by Monday, it looks like it will probably be a discussion on Anorexia and Bulemia, though I have covered this topic previously before on my channel I would really like to make a decent discussion going about it to see what over people think about it.

The reason for the title of this blog is due to the fact that our new car has been having a few problems, firstly the CD player had a CD stuck in it and now it has started leaking oil, we are going to take it to have it looked out but I am worried it is going to be expensive to fix. At the moment however I best be going, I have a lot to think about, many things to plan and a wife to take care of.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you,
NL

After Months Of Rejection

After months of rejecting my blog in favour of my various other conquests (youtube) I have decided to bring a renewal of commitment to try and get at least one post on my blog per week (some weeks will probably be more). I started this blog because I wanted to organise my thoughts, to be able to think things through and come up with decent answers. In some ways this has been a success and THIS is why I have decided it is important to continue. Obviously yesterdays post was more like a way of analysing the arguement I was having with my wife at the time and by the end of it I had actually come to the conclusion I had been doing stuff wrong that was making the situation worse and just upsetting my wife more. In the end neither of us are perfect and we still need to work on things, however I am happy to say that after I had finished blogging yesterday we managed to resolve the arguement fairly easily when I just took the time to LISTEN to what she was trying to say and stopped giving her damn pointless advice. All is good and God did answer my prayer in the end so I am happy for that.

May God bless you and keep you,
NL

If I Want To Discuss

Me and my wife are having one of our disagreements conserning the amount of friends I have who are female. She doesn't like it and is constantly jealous of them. She winds me up to the point that I am shouting at her and can't control my irritation at the fact that she is unwilling to talk to me properly and expects me to talk from a point where I literally am unable to understand what she is saying. She says to me 'Why won't you understand me?' lying down, turned away from me with her back to me. She won't communicate in way that I can understand so what am I supposed to do? As the discussion turns towards a more furious arguement I say 'I can't win with you, I can't even draw', she replies with 'why does this have to be a game? why does this have to be a fight?' it is a fight because she has made it so. She is jealous and wants to talk to me and yet refuses to talk to me in a way I can understand, when I try to give ideas as to how to solve the problem she pretty much spits them back in my face. Maybe that's a problem there, I keep giving fixes to the problem, not really listening to how she feels, but I don't really know what else to do? How can I empathise? I don't really get jealous, I don't mind if she has guy friends. Though I have asked God I think I need to try harder because it doesn't seem to be coming to me.

I guess in the end after this rant really I have come to the point where I can understand that neither of us is doing it right, really I do get to defensive in my discussion. I need to work at listening to her better and try to relate on a higher level rather than just giving whatever solution pops into my head. I just wish she could face me when she is talking to me, give me some body language to work with.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you all,
NL

And She Is Gone

So my wife just got the news that her direct boss (team leader), who has been there less time than my wife (about 6 months), has today handed in her notice to quit. The woman in question was never really very apt at her particular job, she couldn't do it in otherwords, so perhaps it is for the best that she is going. I am actually very glad that the woman in question is leaving due to the fact that she had a very unhelpful and attacking approach to everyone she worked with apart from her boss, she was mean, lazy and all round a waste of space. Perhaps my wife will try to pursue a promotion, however I doubt it as I don't think my wife really wants to follow the stream of management. We shall see how this all turns out, right now I am happy that such a negative person is moving from her work, however I am hoping that she might end up in a situation where she will come to faith and maybe starting treating people a bit more equally. We shall always remember her in our prayers.

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you,
NL

Migraine Worries

At the moment I sit infront of my computer worried terribly about my wife. She keeps getting headaches and I wonder often whether it is something she is eating or something that she is doing that is the problem. At this moment in time she is laying in the other room trying to get some sleep because the pain behind her eyes is unbearable. I don't know what to do about it. I have no ideas what to suggest. She has tried taking 2 types of painkiller but neither has worked and her head is still throbbing. Apart from sleeping and getting a lot of liquids what can be done about this situation? I mean in all likelyhood it is the weather causing the problem what with the extra heat and brightness of light. I wish terribly that I could take the pain for her and that she would be refreshed and happy, even if it meant I had to go through the same torment she is currently going through I would be willing to do that. I hate it when she can't smile, I hate when she isn't ok. It is harder for me to cope with my problems when she can't raise her head just to be able to smirk a little. I am so worried about her and I don't want her to feel like this anymore. Is there really nothing I can do for her?

On a side note if you were to go over to my youtube channel tomorrow you would be noticing some serious changes to it. Things are moving in a different direction and I am happy for the change. I am glad that I might be able to make something out of this. www.youtube.com/niveusleonusx

Thanks for reading. May God bless you and keep you all,
NL