Interviews Suck

I haven't posted in a while so I just thought I would update me as to what is going on in my life... I say me because I am still pretty sure the only people who actually bother with this are me and my wife so anyway. I had an interview last week which was interesting, I always worry about interviews. When I go I feel as though I might get the job or whatever and then sure enough a day or so later I get a responce saying I have failed to attend a job yet again. It sucks even more than just getting a responce straight from the CV because at least with just the CV they aren't judging YOU... just your CV right? So obviously I didn't get the job, I only just found this out and it kind of bothers me, I would have really enjoyed doing this sort of work. The job I had an interview for was a gardening role so it sounded like a lot of fun, something that would have motivated me, made me feel good about working and kept me from being overly stressed. I suppose I will just be saying most of this tomorrow anyway on my Youtube channel but I really want a job. I am going stir crazy not having anything to do. When I get so bored for not having anything to do I just fill my life with meaningless tasks, pointless things that just take up time that mean in the end I only start living when my wife gets home, I am so scared that I am putting a tremendous amount of pressure on her. I know God has a plan for me but what if that had been the job and I messed up the interview, what if I said something I wasn't supposed to or didn't say something I was? I have only just managed to get a CV I am proud of now I have to try and be someone I am not to impress people I don't even know, and I don't know how. I just need some peace of mind that there is something I am supposed to be doing with my life, the only things I have in my life, when my wife isn't around, are Youtube, Nerdfighting and Psychology, and I can't do my Psychology course because we literally can't afford it. We are ok for our needs but our wants are very limited at the moment, and I so desire to be able to fund my course, I have such high dreams of going to university studying something I really want to, feeling great about it. I don't know maybe I'm not making any sense.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Taxes, Taxes, Taxes

As I don't work my house-hold currently has a very limited supply of cash. My wife is earning a certain amount that we have to twist and turn in every direction so that we can afford to eat, live, and pay our taxes... Sometimes if we are very careful we get to have some fun like going to the cinema or going on holiday. This month we received our tax statements for this year. Our council tax which was at £114 per month (as we moved in last year) is now at approximately £106 per month, however we have a problem we aren't allowed to pay £106 per month for the single reason that they have to redo the computers, which apparently they have to do each year. This in turn means that we have to pay £124 for 10 months, this seem quite insignificant but we will most certainly miss that £10 per month, now the only cure to this is that I find a job and at the moment I am very much considering the idea of becoming a cosmetics consultant to remove all our problems. The only problem with this is that I am worried that my plan for selling them is somewhat flawed and I cannot get rid of the idea that even though it was given to me very definitely that it was just some conjuration of my own person thinking that this is a quick fix to all of my current problems... I hope that I am not in some respect going actually insane from this experience and imagining up every answer to this particular question. Well in anyway I am sure God has my back... well I am most of the time, I can honestly say that sometimes I have doubts, like the fact that my mum came down this weekend and spent it basically talking about seeing other people and battering me with getting a job... She seems to think I have the amazing ability to magically produce a job, she has no idea what the climate is like at the moment and maybe she needs to wake up as I am pretty sure that soon she herself is going to be out of work. I don't know I guess I am quite angry at the moment with how things are, maybe she is right, maybe I should just magic up a job and go work for myself doing whatever it is I can think of... I suppose becoming a cosmetics consultant would be the best idea then. I don't know I need to pray about it.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Min Fru Ar Sjuk

Today my wife is home from work as she is ill. She had a reaction to some hyacinths last night and I am hoping its just a continuation from that, because it will mean that she will recover fairly soon. I am worried though that it is the same thing her friend had last week because I am pretty sure that that was a strain of flu or something, from what I heard it was quite nasty. My wife seems to be much better now though so hopefully she will recover quickly, I am so happy to have her home for an extra day though. We are planning on doing a bit of baking and a couple of other things. However most important is that she gets plenty of rest. We did sleep almost 12 hours last night though so her body should already be working on the thing very efficiently. I really love my wife, shes so good to me and so goot for me. She keeps me level when I think that I'm going a bit unbalanced, she doesn't know how much I rely on her but I apprieciate her so much, shes fantastic. With God's help I am sure she will get well soon, considering her progress though, I imagine she will be suitable to go back tomorrow maybe.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL

Visitation From Afar

So my wifes sister and best friend came to visit us this weekend. We had a lot of fun together. We went into London to watch a musical which was amazing, I haven't been to a live performance of anything for a long time and I have never been to a musical before, I was extremely impressed by both the singing and the dancing, seriously those people must be in amazing shape. We also went shopping, which my wife's sister especially enjoyed, I think she left with about 3 times the amount of stuff that she arrived with. All in all we had a lot of fun, now our apartment feels kind of empty as there is just the two of us now, however in most ways I like it like that.

So yeah, another thing I did in the weekend is I organised a poker evening, though there were only 4 people it was pretty much a success and it was fun to socialise with my friends like that.

Thanks for reading, God Bless,
NL